Dear Abba,

It is your child again.

It has been a hard couple of days, but I am still here holding on. You did say the battle is not for the swift, right? But for those who can endure it.

I must say, it has been a lifetime of enduring. I feel like I have endured the storms, endured the rains, endured the pains, again and again. I have endured the battles, endured the storms, endured the calms and then the raging bellows erase the peace of those calms.

I know.

I am built to fight.

I know, I am built, for war.

i know, this life is not easy and you said so.

I know. I know. I know.

I have so much knowing, but I am running out of everything else.

I need your peace, even when the enemy is in my face. I need your love, for when I feel loveless and hated. I need your restoration for when I go off course. And I need you again and again.

I need your patience, for when I slip up. I need correction, and discipline, so that I do not wallow in disobedience.

I need protection against the curses of witchcraft. I need you Lord. I need all of you.

I need your angels, cause someone has got to fight on my behalf. I need weapons because I must do some damage myself. I need divine strategies on how to scale walls, build fences, design fortresses and rescue the lost.

I need love, so that I can dispense this without limits and I need compassion, for when I meet those who don’t deserve it.

I need your council for when, I need wisdom, knowledge and understanding and I need a hug for when I feel worthless.

i need walks in the parks, long sessions in your garden. private time talking about things that you want to tell. I need Jesus, because He has already paid it with His blood. So I need Him more and more everyday.

I need teachers, who shall build me up. But only send and keep those who will take me to the next level. I need counsellors who hear you better than I and who wont envy me, of You.

I need doctors who will heal me with your healing love. And I need spiritual parents who will be the earthly parental representation of you.

I need so much Lord, so just fill me up.

Lord God, I know this is a needy prayer. But Abba help me, I need You most of all too.

 

… in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

 

By: Denise N. Fyffe

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