I have been silent long enough.
It’s been many months since I last took the time to truly sit and write about my Christian experience. I need to write. Writing is cathartic. It helps to release everything that has been stored up inside.
Everything that pains you.
Everything that seeks to destroy you.
Every secret thought.
Every promise for tomorrow.
I can no longer hold them in because the pain is too much. The hidden things seek to kill, to steal and to destroy and only by bringing these things into the light will the light of God reveal the truth. Even when you yourself are at fault.
Plus, this is a new dispensation in my Christian life.
Two Years of Silence
It’s been two years since I transitioned into this new life.
I felt like a seed that was planted in new ground, under concrete, in fertile earth. But, I had to break through the surface – though it seemed impossible.
The struggle was beyond unbearable. The experiences, humbling. The days, long. The tasks, humiliating and then liberating. The people, human.
There is nothing new under the sun, God said. There is nothing new under the sun. These are the words of those who truly eat of the fruit of wisdom.
My inner voice is speaking. It is crying. It is thrashing about seeking space to breathe, to exhale, to cry out, to rejoice.
My spirit understands. It has been patient with me. It has been crouching in the corner of my soul. It has been lounging in the sunroom of my inner home and I don’t wish for it to wither and die. I seek to give it the nourishment and freedom it needs to thrive.
Sometimes, we are our own assassins. But, its time to break the silence.
About the writer:
Poetess Denise N. Fyffe is a published author of over 30 books and writer for over ten years. She is a General and Copy Writer for online publications such as Revealing the Christian Life, Jamaica Rose, Entertainment Trail, My Trending Stories, The Island Journal, Express Writers, among others.
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